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Lions Roar : May 2007
SHAMBHALA SUN MAY 2007 81 WE THINK WE KNOW WHAT THINGS MEAN, and on the rare occasions we admit we don’t, we aim to find out. We study; we gnaw. We gauge the impact and the consequence. We make deductive leaps and draw foregone conclusions. Among all the puzzles and predicaments, the best guesses and good intentions of child-rearing, there are a few universally accepted truths. One of them is this: Barbie is bad. How troubling when our daughters reach so readily for those eleven inches of molded plastic; the slender body that fits so easily in their still-dimpled hands; the far-from-life- like doll that survives every kind of fashion torture, burial in sandboxes, drowning in bathtubs, and disastrous haircuts ad- ministered in secret with forbidden scissors. How mortifying when, among all the more sensible offerings, all the appro- priate and sanctioned playthings, our daughters more or less universally agree: Barbie is good. It’s in that rub, the eternal struggle of bad versus good, right versus wrong, that I see the hidden dimension of the icon un- der the bed. It goes beyond the unassailable ideals of gender neutrality and healthy body image. It’s far subtler than choos- ing sides with demons or innocents. It’s not us versus them; it’s neither black nor white. It’s dharma, the dharma of Barbie, available for as little as $5.99 at the discount superstore. “DOES GEORGIA LIKE BARBIE?” the girl quizzes me. She is four and eyeing the pink-vinyl lunch kit that my daughter carries into the preschool yard each morning. It has a picture of a modish Barbie in fringed vest and bell-bottoms. The cul- tural reference is lost on my daughter, of course, but not on me, the consumer target. I’d purchased it to ease us past this next major milestone: eating lunch at school. “Yes,” I answer. “Do you?” I can tell by her upturned face and direct gaze that she has something to unload. “My daddy says we don’t like Barbies because the company that makes them wants to take our money and they don’t look like us.” We carry lunch, I’m thinking, and she carries that. It’s such a burden, our high-mindedness, and it gets us no- where. Oh, we might inch along far enough to trade one idea for another, but that’s nowhere new. We’re still bogged down by our biases, hamstrung by principles and blinded by the in- violability of our opinions. Then our children, so open and eager for an explanation, swallow it whole. They spit it out in bits and pieces, a defense against a pink-vinyl lunch kit that can never be theirs. BARBIES DON’T LOOK LIKE US. That’s the truth. After you wrangle them out of the package and onto the floor for a time, they don’t even look like Barbies anymore. I try to match the outfits; I try to pair the shoes; I give up on the hair. I sweep through the room after playtime and reorganize. It is my private pain. My daughter’s doll play has nothing to do with the way her doll is supposed to look. She does not elevate the ideal; she does not see the difference. In her games, nothing is precious, nothing is permanent, nothing is taboo. One afternoon I hear her and a friend exploding in glee. They are playing Barbies. Their game consists of throwing all the dolls over the bed. When they finish, they throw them over the other side of the bed. It doesn’t seem right to me. Before I realize what I’m doing, I go in and put a stop to it. The company isn’t stupid. They make a nod to diversity, to differences in hair color, skin tone, gender, and even age. They offer up cute career scenarios and a panoply of Grimm princesses. It is a clever nod. It gives my daughter more things to wish for, and her coterie, more things to buy. But Georgia isn’t fooled by it. She follows no one’s script but her own. Re- gardless of any message encrypted in the stylized dolls and intricate accessories, every game ultimately devolves into the same storyline, an original melodrama of Georgia’s own creation, wherein her heroic character is betrayed by friends, abandoned and left to sleep outdoors where she is “bitten by raccoons” or meets some other tragic fate, but ultimately rises in time for the story to end. I recognize the classic arc of fable in her tale. I see how densely human she is, how eternal and unknowable her mind. I stop trying to make the game be nice, quiet, or amiable. I stop steering it by my own notions of fair- ness or morality. I let it be. Among all those in her collection—some dolls newer, shinier, more fashionable, each in turn birthed by a product launch and attendant marketing campaign––she has one fa- vorite. Indistinguishable to me, it is one of the older ones, hair now ratty and coarse. It wears a dingy and torn gown, her favorite dress. The doll has no special features. No razzle. All the other ones play interchangeable supporting roles, mere retainers. She will tell you that she loves this Barbie because it is “pretty,” but relatively speaking, it is not pretty in the way I use the term. It is not pretty in the way I recollect that split second of youth by which standard I now remember my finest hour. I come to see that “pretty” is not comparative for her. It is how Georgia describes that capacity in her to love. Barbie is pretty, rocks are pretty, and lizards are pretty. I wish I too could see how pretty everything is, how pretty I am. SOME OF GEORGIA’S FRIENDS HAVE BARBIES. Some do not. Those who do not have them sometimes come to our house for the sole purpose of playing with what is outlawed at home. This is how one of my neighbors straddled the issue. Her daughter wasn’t allowed to own Barbies but was granted unlimited visitations to the “dark side” just down the street. I could understand why. It is hard—quite nearly impossible— to live with the craving that prohibition can produce. On one of these visits, the girls were playing hard at Barbies, and we moms were sitting nearby, futilely sorting a mound of miniature clothes and shoes to bide the time. My daughter asked the other mom why her little girl wasn’t allowed to have dolls like these.