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Lions Roar : May 2009
SHAMBHALA SUN MAy 2009 74 I wondered about God. I wondered who I was and why I was alive. Why was there only my one small self inside my head, serving a life sentence in the solitary con- finement of my skull? It didn’t make sense. The summer I was ten I had insomnia, although I didn’t know that word, and I was afraid I was going to die from lack of sleep. I lay in my bed listening for the ship’s clock as it chimed the watches of the night. Eight bells for midnight. The worst thing about the loneliness was that it was unspeakable. I couldn’t describe it or ex- plain it. Nothing was wrong, but I was lost. Two bells meant one in the morning. I tiptoed into my parents’ room. “I can’t go to sleep,” I said. I wanted to get into bed with my par- ents but I didn’t dare ask. I was too old. My mother told me to imagine sheep jumping over a fence and to count them. It seemed like a dumb idea that had noth- ing to do with the fear that kept me awake but I was willing to give it a try. “If you get up to a hundred sheep and you’re still awake, come back,” she said. I did—I got to a hundred, easy. “Could a person die from not sleeping?” I asked my mother. “No,” she said, “No one ever died from not sleeping. Why don’t you read your book, sweetie?” Back in my bed I read Under the Lilacs, a story about an orphan boy and his dog, and how they ran away from the circus. Four bells for two a.m. I saw the curtains shifting like breath in the moonlight. Six bells for three a.m. The moonlight faded and pulsed again in a silent, scary whoosh—caused unbeknownst to me by a passing cloud—and then I must have slept because I never heard the end of the night watch. In the morning I walked barefoot to the secret place, watching out for poison ivy. There had been a light mist in the night, so the pale green lichen was wet and soft. I imagined myself an orphan in the wilder- ness. I would have to gather berries and build a shelter for myself in order to sur- vive. I made a little one first, for practice. I snapped off some twigs from the bay- berry bushes and whittled away the little W Whheenn Y Yoouu’’vvee M Maasstteerreedd EEvveerr yytthhiinngg FFrroom m RReeiikkii ttoo RReeff llee xxoo lologg yy,, W Whher eree D Doo YYoouu G Goo NNeexx tt?? It’sareal dilemma. Yo u’ve completed afew courses. Dabbled in one or twomore. Maybe gone full circle on the workshop tour. And the longing to knowmore and be more is just as strong. Nowwhat? Ta ke aquantum leap into BrennanHealingScience. Learn not onlytoread the Human Energy Field butbe able to identify and heal the distor tionsthat lead to disease.Use High Sense Pe rception to trackand guide the flows of energy and to access vital information. Pe rform someof the most advanced healing techniques known. And much more.The four-yearpar t-time professional training program is also an incredible journeyofself-discovery. Many students comefor that alone.Othersarrive with no experience of any healing modality,yet leave as amazing healers. Ta ke the opportunity to learndirectlyfromDr. Barbara Brennan, the former NASA scientist and best-selling author whopioneered modern energy healing. Go to our website and request your free copyof our DVD, BecomingaHealer. Or just call our friendly folk in the office. ® 800.924.2564 www.barbarabrennan.com 500 N.E. Spanish River Boulevard Suite 108 • Boca Raton,FL 33431-4559 BARBARA BRENNAN SCHOOLOF HEALING® Nyingma Summer Seminar July11-19 * Shedra September Weekends * Phuntsok Choling, CO Mahayana Seminar June26-28 * Dzogchen Seminar August 28 - 30 * Pema Osel Do Ngak Choling, VT Mangala Shri Bhuti 2009 Schedule Dzigar Kongtrul Rinpoche