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Lions Roar : September 2009
SHAMBHALA SUN SepteMBer 2009 43 one day in January, feeling expansive and cheerfully open to being interrupted, i answered the phone in my study. sherril was on the line. “alan just died in baltimore,” she said. “Can you come over right now?” alan is sherril’s husband and my closest friend. We’d known each other forty years, since our days as students at the university of iowa Writers’ Workshop, through years of Zen practice, through alan becoming a rabbi and my ordination as a Zen priest, through establishing a Jewish meditation center together, through retreats, teaching sessions, workshops, marriages, divorces, children, grandchil- dren. We had shared so much for so long that we took each other’s presence in the world as a given. i got in the car and drove to san francisco in a daze—one i may never recover from. our first response to loss, difficulty, or pain is not surrendering to what has happened. it seems so negative, so wrong, and we don’t want to give in to it. yet we can’t help thinking and feeling differ- ently, and it is the thinking and the feeling—so unpleasant and painful—that is the real cause of our suffering. these days many of us experience troubled thinking and feeling because times are tough. so many are losing jobs, savings, homes, expectations. and if we are not losing these things our- selves, we are receiving at close range the suffering of others who are losing them, and we are reading and hearing about all this in the media and on the web, which daily depict the effects of economic anxiety all over the world. We are all breathing in the atmosphere of fear and loss. in one of our last conversations, alan shared a teaching about death. he had a sense of hu- mor, and his spiritual teachings were often odd and funny, sometimes even ridiculous, which